You know how self-help books tell you that you should visualise yourself in a successful situation and it helps you be confident and achieve what you want to achieve?
Well I have this horrible uncontrollable visualisation happening in my head. It's like before I have to do anything at work, or go to a social event (anything really) I visualise myself doing or saying something ditsy. Sometimes it even includes a hideous laugh, complete with a snort.
Anyway it's getting out of control, I can't stop it. It's like you try to stop yourself thinking about pink elephants, then pink elephants fill your head (now I'm thinking about pink elephants) Wait, I'm talking about this like everyone else experiences it. You do, don't you? Or am I completely weird with no chance of normality? Who am I kidding? I AM completely weird with no chance of normality ;)Labels: uncontrollable brain actions |
but then maybe it's worse when you can't get to sleep and you try to count sheep jumping over fences in your head and you can't actually make them jump the fences because they run around them or bump into them or knock them over (you know you who are sleep sheep-counter!)